Med School Life

July will be Justin's 4th year of med school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe how fast time is going.  He has finally decided on a specialty which I am happy to announce is anesthesiology.  He has always had that in mind, but this month he has been able to actually practice anesthesia.  He is loving it.  His days are long but I have never seen him enjoy any rotation as much as he does this month.  I am so happy for him that he has found something that he loves.  This guy has put in many long hours though 3rd year, some which were 21 hour days and having a new baby and an emotional wife at times.  He really is amazing.  He studies non stop and this month isn't any better.  He takes his step 2 boards in July so he is studying more than usual.  Then after boards we will have 5 days with him then he is off to Ohio for a month then on to Pennsylvania for another month then finally home.  Then he will be doing quick trips to other states for interviews for residency.  There is one residency where we live now that he is liking.  So we might be staying in Florida for another 4 years.   We had the opportunity to go to a party for the graduating residences Saturday night at the attending's house (The Dr over the residences) and let me tell you I was in love with their house!!! They were right on the inner coast way so their back yard over looked the water. We got there right at sunset and it was breath taking.  I am so proud of Justin and all he is doing to be able to provide for our family.  (here comes the gushy stuff)  For those of my good friends reading this you know I was engaged before I met Justin.  I just have to say how happy I am that that did not work out.  I think my life would have been a lot harder relationship wise.  Justin has been the best thing that has happened to me and I am so grateful for him and all he has been working for.

Happy Birthday Babby Boy

I never dreamed about becoming a mom.  I actually was really terrified my whole life of having the responsibility of a little life placed in my hands to raise.  Up until the day Carter was born, even minuets before I was terrified! I had anxiety months before he came, but I wouldn't change anything for the world! This little boy has brought me so much joy and so much fear at the same time.  This boy is fearless! He started walking at 9 1/2 months and has been on the move ever since.  He is non stop into everything!!!! Although I am ready for a bigger place, having a one bedroom apartment has been great at keeping him where I can see him at all times! It has been fun watching him grow up this past year, a little sad, but fun. 

Being so far away from family has been a little rough and made us keep his first birthday small.  We had a few families over to swim and did a BBQ.  I made a couple nautical decorations, which that right there was something I never thought I would do.  Carter had a bad first birthday party.  He tripped and fell twice, the first time giving him a bloody nose and a cut lip.  The second time he tripped and fell again, he is now starting to run, and smacked his forehead on the ground giving him a huge goose egg on his head.  He cried a little then was good and on his way to see what else he could destroy.  I have discovered Carter has a hard head and is one tough little boy.

Carter is the spitting image of Justin, everyone points that out everywhere we go, but personality wise is all me.  He is stubborn and silly and determined.  I am just praying he doesn't get Justin's brains other wise we might have a mad genius on our hands. Some days I cry to Justin saying I am a horrible mother, and other days I am ready to be done being a mother. But when the day is all over and Carter is asleep in bed a part of me just wants to snuggle with him.  I have enjoyed motherhood with all it's ups and downs.  It may have frighten me before, and it still does but this little boy has my heart and will always be my baby.  I told Justin one night that the good thing with boys is they always have a place in their heart for their mother.